There seems to be one constant in my life right now. He is amazing and great.
Everything else. I just feel like I'm losing it...I feel like I'm losing myself and I don't like it. It feels like I have been an emotional wreck for the past few weeks and I hate that...I'm the strong one, the one who doesn't get upset over dumb stuff...well its starting to test me and I don't like it. Aside from him, I feel like I have essentially two best friends. Which is fine...but I used to have so many people in my life, it was hard managing time, to ensure time with everyone.
I feel like school is a waste of time currently, I am suffering from severe senioritis...but at the same time I'm wondering if I will actually finish. I feel like my intellect is slipping awat, my edginess, my smarts. I am trying to stay committed to the last few things I am hanging on to. It just all feels like its slipping away from me so fast...and I don't know what to do to get it back.
For once in my life. I feel scared, because I don't know whats going to happen next.
hmmm... a lot to think about, and to try and grasp hold of.
J
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