A REAL realization!

I hate growing up. I don't like it. I know I am young at heart and plan on staying that way...BUT the actualy fact of growing up sucks!

*insert tantrum here*

I am now taking time to appreciate the little things in life....not that I haven't before, but now they have become even more important.

J

This one's for you

I miss everyone. Yet, I am enjoying this whole doing new things thing. As well as getting to know some amazing people and making new friends. As crazy as this summer is going to potentially be, it has been surprisingly relaxing. To the hopeless romantic, boy howdy life is great.

I have vowed several times that I am going to take time for me, and after this summer not having time for me is going to be an issue, for the simple fact that I spend a lot of time with myself.

until next time
J

A short 3 day weekend!

Another memorial day. One full of remembering those lost in war, and thanking all of those who served for our freedom.

My weekend was very relaxing and full of friends. I enjoyed the entire weekend. The next few weeks are going to be crazy between work and things I want and need to do.

I absolutely love the place that I live at this summer. When someone asks you to close your eyes and think of the place you would go....well I live at mine. Its a place I have virtually called home for 5 or 6 years now, and officially this summer, it is my home. It is so quiet and filled with nature and I love it. Being able to look out my window and see a vast array of nature is awesome.

I also love the weather we have been having here lately. Not the hot gross humid weather but the weather with random spring showers, beautiful lightening shows, and amazing mid-day breezes. I am not a fan however, of the devestation that some of this weather has brought this state.

I am dreaming, a good dream. One of hope and wonderment. Full of life, love, and happiness. With the achievement of goals and the surrounding of great friends. One day this dream will become reality. Today, feels like a great day.

J

I think its all in my head!

At times I hate emotions all together.
No explanation to feelings and it sucks.
I simply wish I were truely emotionless.

I am enjoying my summer. Things are going okay, I pressume. I love just sitting outside and taking in the quiet. At first it seems odd, but soon it becomes comfortable and rather enjoyable. Going back to the chaos of school in a short 11 weeks is going to be rough, but I can manage.

J

To live and to learn....

I have always lived under a wing. Doing things that make me happy yes, full-filling my dreams, yet doing things to please other people. I have always had others who sort of guided me and lead me and gave me advice. For once, I have sort of been thrown out, on my own, doing my thing. Sure, there is a hand and familiar faces there. They are great. I start on a new expedition tomorrow, one that will be full of hardwork, fun, and a little bit of opening a new chapter to an old book.

J

A look of death....

I never thought I would be the one who would receive this look. I also never thought that I would EVER be able to COMPLETELY avoid making eye contact with a specific person...hmm such is life.

I start my new job on Tuesday for the summer, I am SO excited. I moved into my summer apartment yesterday. Still have a few homish touches before its ready to get settled in.

J

Hot-N-Ready

I am taking a break from the long day of packing....slowly but surely the mounds of JUNK in my room are beginning to disappear. It is kind of sad. A quick look around the room shows the many boxes full of this that and the other, the neatly sorted piles of more JUNK that has "value" to me right now I am ready for it to be piled out of sight for a bit. Organization is a quality many see as a face-value to my life. I am organized, yet often times a little mess doesn't bother me. Although I would prefer if I could flip that switch to keep everything prim and proper and put away...haha novel concept. My room, if any of you have ventured a look recenlty looks like it was hit by a tornado, earthquake, and hurricane all at the same time. Well, slowly but surly we are getting out of this.

Packing up my room has made me realize one thing. This one thing is the fact that I do NOT like empty spaces. If I am given X amount of room I don't want it to be empty. After reflecting on this idea for different parts throughout the day I realize this is true in many more aspects of my life than just my "space" or room.

I start an adventure on Monday evening/Tuesday. I am ready and very excited. I have an internship and am getting the privelage to work with my best friend. We go to seperate colleges and have gotten extremly close over the past few years, so it has been hard being away from each other for so long. The Shady One is such an awesome person, that has been there for me when he least expected it.

Well, the mess around me is starting to taunt me again, so I shall be off!

J

Joy for a company I used to hate!

I give them kudos and props and everything inbetween.

Wal-Mart, a company I used to not really care for becasue of their conglomoration and large "super store" highatus that shut out smaller mom and pop stores. They have played it smart in the past, making moves that many wouldn't have expected. What have they done now...well you see if you enter any newer Wal-mart store you might notice while parusing the shopping center that the lights may seem to dim and get brighter, well if you were to look up there may be a complexity of windowish units above using natural light to help provide lighting during the day. This is only one of the first few steps this huge corporation is taking to "Go Green."

I have been looking in my life and trying to realize things I can do to help out the world. I am an evironmentalist, get over it. I have a passion for the environment, especially the water situation. Yet, I digress. I am beginning to take my major seriously and utilize business that have great business characteristics and morals. One reason I am doing more business with Wal-mart.

Wal-Mart is taking steps to further their "green-ness" I am waiting on them to change their colors from blue and white to green and white. (;}) Wal-mart will not ship trucks that are not atleast 3/4 full or fuller, to cut down on fossil fuel waste. They are using recycled plastic to make their bags (this is something I still don't feel is 100% green but its a step). In new stores they are going to start putting in electrical outlets in lamp posts in the parking lot so that while you are shopping you can charge your car. Also, the employee smocks and shirts are beginning to be made out of recycled bottle caps and other recycled materials (how cool is that?)!

If this huge company can start taking little steps, although they have the money to back it, why can't we?

What are you doing?

J

Dia de mi madre!

While finishing up the life of a busy student and employee, I am trying to pack and hence I am thinking. Thinking about my family, and the decisions I am thinking about and making. Since mother's day is coming up I am trying to decide what I want to get her. I have thought of a few gifts and am trying to decide exactly what I want to get for her. She hasn't had a real chance to catch up with her reading, but since she is about to have three months off of work I am thinking about supplying her with a mini-series from her favorite author. Another thing I am thinking about is that the university is having a basket plant sale on Friday, so I may go pick her out some flowers or something for the garden back home. Hmmm, who knows!

J

Wee....the smell of bleach!

It's the end of the semester
The ladies are movin' out
An aroma of swiffer and bleach fills the air
Paper is scattered about the ground
A smile coveres all faces

It feels good to be done.

J