A Smile or a frown..

I smile
I laugh
I giggle....
To you its all okay
It's just typical me
Does it ever cross your mind that its not all okay
The words that you say
sometimes they help
Often times though,
its not what you say
that affects me the most
I love you dearly
I care for you
More than one could EVER imagine
Yet, I nearly left
Today, I don't know if I can forgive
Although I know I will
I have given you my trust
I have given you a piece of me
A sort of offering
All I ask is that before I run
You notice
.....
Maybe its just me
Its all in my mind
I am doing wrong
Thinking these things
My mind so jumbled
This is the only logical piece
I am in the wrong
Like so often in the past
Using a fasod of emotions
To hide my pain
What pain?
Might you ask
A pain that I will never tell
Maybe its not pain at all
Maybe its a feeling
an emotion
a giggle
a laugh
a smile, or maybe a frown.

J